Life Lessons

I found this on the internet today and wanted to share it.

"You may have thought I didn't see,
Or that I hadn't heard,
Life lessons that you taught to me,
But I got every word.

Perhaps you thought I missed it all,
And that we'd grow apart,
But Dad, I picked up everything,
It's written on my heart.

Without you, Dad, I wouldn't be
The woman I am today;
You built a strong foundation
No one can take away.

I've grown up with your values,
And I'm very glad I did;
So here's to you, dear father,
From your forever grateful kid."

A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

I could really use his advice today. I usually know what Dad would say in most situations, but today I just want so much to be able to hear his voice. I would give anything to talk to him one more time. One more laugh, one more question, one more "I love your face" when we are ready to hang up the phone.

Still Trying to Find My Way

I am not sure what part of the grieving process that I am currently in. It seems like lately it's almost like I forget every once in a while that my Dad passed away. It is the weirdest feeling that is so hard to explain. Something will happen or someone will say something in passing and the entire experience hits me all over again. A little voice sounds off in my head telling me "Oh yeah stupid... your dad died". The other night I could not close my eyes to fall asleep without picturing his lifeless body laying in his casket.

The only thing I can think of is that I am trying to push it so far back in my mind because it is just too painful to deal with. Last night I was with my friend Mandi and Love Can Build a Bridge came on the radio... she teared up and I didn't. She made the connection even before I did. Am I a horrible person? Is it wrong to repress something that you just cant handle?

I feel like I am letting him down more and more each day.

Thought for the day

"Dad, your guiding hand on my shoulder will remain with me forever." ~Author Unknown

"There's something like a line of gold thread running through a man's words when he talks to his daughter, and gradually over the years it gets to be long enough for you to pick up in your hands and weave into a cloth that feels like love itself." ~John Gregory Brown, Decorations in a Ruined Cemetery, 1994

"There are three stages of a man's life: He believes in Santa Claus, he doesn't believe in Santa Claus, he is Santa Claus." ~Author Unknown

"When I was a boy of fourteen, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be twenty-one, I was astonished at how much he had learned in seven years." ~Mark Twain, "Old Times on the Mississippi" Atlantic Monthly, 1874

"How true Daddy's words were when he said: "All children must look after their own upbringing." Parents can only give good advice or put them on the right paths, but the final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands."
~ Anne Frank

Two little girls, on their way home from Sunday school, were solemnly discussing the lesson. "Do you believe there is a devil?" asked one. "No," said the other promptly. "It's like Santa Claus: it's your father." ~Ladies' Home Journal, quoted in 2,715 One-Line Quotations for Speakers, Writers & Raconteurs by Edward F. Murphy

"What a dreadful thing it must be to have a dull father."
~ Mary Mapes Dodge

"One night a father overheard his son pray: Dear God, Make me the kind of man my Daddy is. Later that night, the Father prayed, Dear God, Make me the kind of man my son wants me to be."
~ Unknown