Hot Springs 2009

Yeah... here it is May 20th and I still cannot bring myself to write about that week. I figured the least I could do was to post the pictures. Hopefully soon I will find the strength and the will to finish this post.

This week changed me forever without question. Please bare with me as I try to pick up the pieces.

Dragging My Feet

I have sat down to write a blog about our trip to Hot Springs at least a dozen times. Yet again today, I have failed. I just cant bring myself to release it. I cant find the courage to face it again. I can talk about it without a problem, but somehow when I start to write about it my heart fills my eyes with tears and I can barely see the screen.

It's almost like I have someone sitting on my shoulders most of the time. I feel heavy and my heart pounds every time I think about anything from that week. I am empty and completely lost. I have been running on auto pilot for some time now, but it is becoming extremely difficult to keep up the facade that I am not silently drowning. I really thought that with time this would get at least a little bit easier, not for me. My cup runnith over.